I lack most of the emotions I should have.  I’m trying.  This is going to be tough.

In theory, I have 20 days before JC gets here.  In reality, I don’t totally know because I’m not sure my body will hold out for the duration, which is fine, and we’re watching it.

That means I have 13 days left at work, and about 40 days worth of work to do.  Long hours the last couple of days, big stress headaches and general hand wringing.  I just want it to go well and move forward while I’m gone.  Whimper.  Stress.

X-Files this weekend.  Left with a touch of “why?”, some happy rememberence, and then Mister posed this question after I ranted about a moment I thought we’d all be privy to and then weren’t.  I’ll try to be cryptic but I can’t promise that is isn’t a spoiler hint.  ok

ready

go.

So.  Since the work behavior was the same as it always was, what if  the other component of their friendship was always there?

A visitor is here.

She came into my life during my darkest hours many years ago and we bob in and out of each others lives.  She is amazing.  I adore her.  I am so very grateful that she is here.

Batman - go now and see it.  Heck, call me and I’ll go see it again with you.  I need to watch the joker again and it is shot in the most perfect city ever.

There is the overused quip about not going to death gracefully but sliding into it dirty and laughing about how much fun you had.  I paraphrase REALLY poorly there…. Anyhow.  That is how work is right now.  JC arrives in 4 weeks {unless he decides to come earlier} and if I had the mental stamina to do do 50 hour weeks instead of 40s I totally would because there is plenty to do.  I love it, and I expect that I will miss them like crazy while I’m gone.

I’m still working out twice a week {GOD I miss running} even though it is starting to feel like old lady work outs, “look!!!  I’ma walkin’!” but after work days like yesterday even grannysize is better than nothing.

Did I mention you should see Batman?  go now.  X-Files this weekend, ahhhhh Mulder.

Baby shower today, again.  It was nice, generous, kind. 

Still, I hear that I look tired.  I guess tired and sad look similar.

Am reminded that I am an outsider.  It’s been a tough couple of day with a couple of more on the way.  Awesome.

I keep on thinking I am making progress.

I keep on finding out I am wrong.

Ok, I’m just pretty proud of all of this -

1. 4 loads of laundy
2. rotate dishes
3. dusted the plants which OMG who knew plants got that dirty
4. Ran a weed experiment where you pour boiling water on weeds to kill the roots
5. Help fix a household appliance
6. Grocery shopping
7. Cooking for Mister

• Mexican pot pie
• Regular veggie pot pie
• Bean’n'Greens
• Roasted eggplant
• pesto
• pineapple & rasins

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Hellboy II - eh, rent it.  Even Mister who was nearly giddy about it didn’t think too much of it.